Who am I?

I am what the creator made me to be. At least I pray so...Each day is to walk in a good way to honor all who lived before me..Who died for me..To be who we are meant to be and not to be as what others say we should be..To be proud of our heritage no matter what it may be.

All blood lines run to the same creator..How we walk in this life is up to us..I choose to walk with honor and respect..Truth and Gentleness..Love and Compassion..I can not say where I have been or what I have seen..I have lived..Loved..Cried..and Screamed..It is all in what makes me who I am..No better than this person or that person.

I walked in life a lot of it not knowing what was going on..Some I did not want to know..Some I was meant to know..Some was hid so I would not know..In the end I knew what I was suppose to..Life is meant to be lived without causing pain to another..We are the teachers of tomorrow and how we teach is what our future will turn out to be.

Who are my heroes? All who have lived and died so we could live..Those who made me..My Elders..My Children..My Mothers and Fathers..Grandfathers and Grandmothers..The Ancients who made the way for us to live.

I do not know what your tomorrow will bring but I do know what mine will..I do not know how you will live tomorrow, I do know how I will..When the day comes to an end, I will know that I have walked in a good way.

I do not know how you pray nor will I tell you that it is right or wrong..For each of us has our own prayers..I will respect yours and you will respect mine..You might light a candle, I burn cannabis as I stand with all creation..You might bow your head, I raise my arms to the sky..I find great peace being in the mountains..sitting by a creek and just being part of all that is there..I enjoy standing in the middle of a thunder and lightning storm feeling the wisdom and power of the thunder.

Each of us were born of this world to be everything we can be..I do not believe we were meant to be mean or hurtful..Life has gotten carried away..And how do we make it better..I wish I knew..If I could I would take all the bad..all the pain..all the sickness and give back balance..peace..freedom..kind and generous hearts within compassionate peoples.

For now I will do my part in Teaching... Loving... Healing... Praying... For all peoples for we are all of this life and here we live..Together.

We are the Caretakers and it is time to do our jobs..I might not be what you wanted or hoped for, but I am what God made me to be and for that I am proud and stand humbled before Him.

I was born in Pensacola Florida to parents of mixed faiths. My mother was raised by her Holiness Grandmother, and my father was raised Baptist on the family farm. Since my father’s family was in Pensacola and my mother’s were in California, we attended the Baptist church that my father’s family attended, Hillcrest Baptist Church.

I attended Sunday school and worship services. I even went to Vacation Bible School during the summer. I learned about Jesus and how he loved the little children. I also learned all the usual stories about baby Moses in the basket, and baby Jesus in the manger. I don’t remember much from the worship services, except that we were supposed to fear God. The sermons seemed to be a little over my head. I certainly did not learn what real love was, at home or at church.

My mom treated me like I was a baby doll that she could dress up. My father worked a lot and didn’t really spend any time with me. We never actually talked about anything important and I didn’t learn what life in the "real world" was really like. What a blessing that was!